Lovely Rumors

I keep hearing the most fabulous rumor. I believe this is the fourth or so time such a rumor has gotten back to me, much to my surprise. One of the times, the recipient, armed with such a juicy tidbit of fallacy was actually admittedly a little vexed that they had not heard the news from me. And low and behold as I explored her sources, it turns out that they too were upset at hearing the news on the gossip chain. SO much so, that they being one of Jeffry's best friends, had not spoken to Jeffrey in months because of the slight, which of course in reality never happened.

I seem to hear the rumor resurfacing every six months or so. Jeffrey is as perplexed as I am, I keep telling him that it's probably a case of our friends wishes becoming animated in whatever way they can find. I have also laughingly told him that a simple way to make the rumors go away is to make them not a fallacy, after all they are rather lovely rumors.

Recently I have had one of the worst g.i. viruses/stomach flu I have ever had, i.e. I had to cancel Valentines days( I have to say as odd as my sense of humor is that I find that strange power both fulfilling, and even as sick as I was, it was pretty hilarious to call Jeffrey and tell him I was canceling Valentines Day). And on Sunday when my roommate ( I still have two but the other one was sick too ) returned home from Church she had heard the rumor again. I just laughed, and made a joke about canceling Valentines and the unlikelyhood of ruining someones plans to remedy the rumor. Jeffrey didn't think that it was that funny, he can be a fuddyduddy like that sometimes. Although I guess I can't really blame him, last time his friends had been mad at him for like six months because they thought that they had been forgotten in the informant chain that occurs after big news like that comes to fruition. It means he has to make another uncomfortable phone call.

I am perplexed as how this rumor keeps getting started. As lovely as it is, and as much as I would like it to be true, it is sort of like being hit in the stomach when I hear it again. Or to put it another way, it's like 3:00 am Christmas morning when you're waiting for the clock to turn to 6:00 am and the sun to show it's face so you can go and bother the adults ......when your brother pretends to go to the bathroom and then comes back and exclaims quietly that Santa has been here. It''s very much like the feeling you get when you run down the hall only to find the unfilled stockings and gapping barren space under the Christmas tree. It's not that I don't think Santa is coming, it's just very much like when you're a child and you want something very bad that every false alarm makes the real thing feel an eternity away. And it's that waiting and time of uncertainty that is almost painful when you already have your hopes up so high.

So just to set the record straight Jeffrey and I at this time are not engaged. We have never been engaged and I do not know or have any idea when or if Jeffrey has plans to remedy such. I do however think the chances are as good as it raining in November( I do love the rainy fall season), but I would prefer to live like the chances are as good as it hailing May. And yes that does happen here. I have a very fond memory from when I lived across the street from ARC and running home with a notebook on my head trying to deflect the pebble size hail that was assailing me, and laughing because my friend did not have such a luxury for protection. I would prefer to live life not waiting for it to happen but being thrilled by the unexpected serendipity of it, not unlike running home in May with a notebook on my head laughing and trying to deflect the pebble sized hail.

If the rumor ever stops being just a rumor rest assured that I will let everyone know.